The Weight Of It All

  • Good Morning Monday! And a surprise Christmas story!

    You read that correctly! I released a surprise Christmas story!



    A 12,000 word short story about food, fluff, and fornication.

    Henry wants to share his and Reed’s first Christmas Eve being engaged by hosting dinner with their closest friends. Henry loves food and he loves to cook—he plans an entire menu and decorates the house to rival a department store, but even though everything’s perfect, something’s not quite right.

    As Henry and Reed prepare for a merry Christmas, no matter what happens, you know it will be a very Henry Christmas.


    It’s super short (only 12K words long) in which we get to spend Christmas Eve with Henry and Reed, and their friends. It’s fun, sexy, and sweet, and I don’t want to give too much away so you’ll need to read it to find out what happens!


    Amazon US
    Amazon UK
    Amazon DE
    Amazon AU
    Amazon CA


    And also, the rights to Clarity of Lines return to me this week — on the 13th to be exact! Yay!!  I’ll be re-releasing it ASAP. It’s been re-edited and has a gorgeous new cover. There is no new added content. This is what the paperback cover looks like, and it will be available as soon as approved by Amazon.

    It always takes a day or two for Amazon to approve re-released books (they need to validate the copyright etc) but I will post links as soon as I have them.

    That’s all for today! Until next week… <3

  • Good Morning Monday and what a bloody week it was!

    OMG this week… So busy, but productive, thank God! What I got done this week:

    • Wrote 16,000 words to finish the first draft of On Davis Row 🙂
    • Wrote the blurb for On Davis Row (I swear, the 92K word story was easier lol)
    • Completed edits on 82,000 words for the re-release of Breaking Point (Oct 27th)
    • Organised/ordered 96 paperback pre-order books to be delivered to Denver
    • The Weight Of It All was released on Audio
    • Negotiated a contract for all FOUR Spencer Cohen books to be done in Audio
    • Imagines and Perfect Catch came off KU and went to other retailers
    • Set up a CafePress store!

    Not to mention the real life/mum things I’ve been doing all week. My kids go back to school this week, so I’ll have some free hours to get everything ready for my big trip to America next week!

    Speaking of my trip, I leave home early early next Monday morning (16th) so there’s a very good chance there will be NO post from me next week. And the following Monday, I’ll be in Denver, travelling back to LA, ready to fly home at midnight. So there might not be a post from me for the next two weeks. I’ll be sure to make up for it though with lots of pics when I return.

    I’m so excited to meeting up with everyone again, and meeting new faces! I can’t wait!!

    For those who may have missed previous posts, this is the gorgeous cover for On Davis Row. I can’t share the blurb yet because it’s unedited. Release date should be late November 🙂

    I can’t remember if I’ve shared with you the new cover for Breaking Point… The very talented Reese Dante made the three covers for the re-releases. Due to be out on October 27th, Breaking Point has been re-edited and tidied but no new content has been added.

    Be sure to grab POINT OF NO RETURN (book 1 in the Turning Point Series) while it’s still on special for just 99c!

    The audio of The Weight of it All was released this week to RAVE reviews! I’m so thrilled people are enjoying Henry and Reed’s story in audio as much as the book, and the wonderful narrator, Joel Leslie, really brings Henry to life.

    You can find it at Audible HERE

    Tantor Audio have requested all FOUR Spencer Cohen books!!  I’m beyond stoked for these boys to go to audio, especially Yanni’s Story, which I’d never have been able to afford to self-pub into audio because of its length. No dates yet, but I’m imagining they’ll be spread out over next year! Stay tuned for more details.

    All my books will be coming out of Kindle Unlimited for now. If and/or when I decide to put them back remains to be seen. They probably will but I’m happy for them to go wide at the time being. (New releases will be in KU and Spencer Cohen 1 has two more months).

    Imagines is the next title to be released wide.

    You can now find Imagines at:



    And I’ll share the links to B&N and iBooks when they become available.

    Perfect Catch is also going wide!

    You can find it at Smashwords and Payhip!

    Other retail sites to follow asap!

    And my new swag store is now at Cafe Press!! There are lots of new and fun products, so be sure to check them out!

    So that’s all my news this week! This week will be busy with travel plans and getting packed and organised. I have some real life things to take care of this week before I leave, so I doubt there’ll be any writing, maybe some tweaking of drafts etc, but that’s about it.

    Until then… <3

  • Good Morning Monday!

    I can’t believe it’s almost October! That means it’s almost time for GRL! Three weeks, to be exact, before I fly out from Sydney to LA, then head to Denver! I’m super excited but woefully unprepared. It’s the beginning of the school holidays here, so not only do I have family stuff but that means my work time is almost down to nil. I’m also sick! My doctor says I have influenza (it’s been a horribly bad flu season this year in Australia) and I can honestly say, on top of Chronic Fatigue Syndrome, I feel like death warmed over. I’ve been trudging along on my WIP, but my hopes of having it done before the holidays, or even before GRL, look unlikely. Which means my estimated release date of sometime in November also looks unlikely.

    But it’s not all doom and gloom!

    Yanni’s Story won FIRST PLACE at Open Skye Book Reviews Book of the Month for August! I’d like to give a HUGE thank you to all the bloggers and reviewers who work tirelessly and volunteer their time to make our community such a wonderful place!

    Switched is now out of Kindle Unlimited and will be in all retail stores asap! These can take a few days to appear, so I’ll be sure to add the links as they happen. But as for now, you can find Switched at Smashwords, Payhip, and of course, at Amazon.

    In audio news, Switched had a fabulous release day and made Audible’s Best Seller’s list in LGBT fiction! Actually, in Audible’s Top 20 LGBT fiction, I have THREE books! Switched, Cronin’s Key and Cronin’s Key II are all sitting pretty in the Best Seller’s category! Thank you to everyone who bought and reviewed my audio books, and my ebooks as well!

    You can find Switched at Audible

    In other exciting audio news, The Weight of It All is now up for pre-order!!!

    You can pre-order it at Audible

    Also, keep an eye out for Point of No Return being on special later this week! As part of a Bookbub deal, it will be on sale for just 99c! The sale is exclusive to Amazon!

    Okay, that’s it for this week. Fingers crossed I start to feel better, and fingers, toes, and eyes crossed that I can get the first draft of On Davis Row closer to being done.

    Have a great week, and thank you for reading! Until then… <3

  • Good Morning Monday! It’s an Imago kind of day…


    I’ve been sitting on this cover FOREVER. I actually found the cover twelve months ago on a pre-made site and just had to have it. I had no story idea for it, but it was so striking, I just had to have it.

    Then, in my travels across the US, I had a spark of inspiration at, of all places, an airport. Lord knows I spent enough time in them across the country LOL. All I knew was these two characters met at an airport and one of them had car rental issues and the other offers him a lift.

    That was all I had. I let the story ferment in my head for a while and the characters grew. I was given names, descriptions, traits… then came their occupations. Lawson was a lepidopterist (butterfly specialist).

    And so Imago was born.

    Maybe the cover I’d bought played in my subconscious. But whatever the reason, the story had to be written.

    Jack and Lawson are simply the cutest couple ever!  Imago is 45K words long and I’ll be posting more on them in coming weeks, so stay tuned. But for now, the cover and blurb!


    Isn’t it GORGEOUS???  Now you can see why I just HAD to have it.  Made by Harper By Design.

    Now for the blurb:

    Nerdy, introverted genius lepidopterist, Lawson Gale, is an expert on butterflies. He finds himself in a small town in Tasmania on a quest from an old professor to find an elusive species that may or may not even exist.

    Local Parks and Wildlife officer, Jack Brighton, is an ordinary guy who loves his life in the sleepy town of Scottsdale. Along with his Border collie dog, Rosemary, his job, and good friends, he has enough to keep from being lonely.

    But then he meets Lawson, and he knows he’s met someone special. There’s more to catching butterflies, Jack realises. Sometimes the most elusive creatures wear bowties, and sometimes they can’t be caught at all.

    Lawson soon learns there are butterflies he can’t learn about it in books. They exist only in a touch, in a kiss, in a smile. He just has to let go first, so these butterflies can fly.

    Imago is the story of finding love, bowties, and butterflies.


    Imago will be live on February 21st. There will be no presale links, unless I change my mind…

    But there is a sequel. I’ve just started it (literally 1.8k words into it) and I’m hoping it will be out in April. At this point in time, I envisage only two books. That, however, is subject to change, depending on what the characters tell me. Lawson’s kind of stubborn, so anything is possible… 😉

    In other news, The Weight Of It All has been voted THE BEST BOOK OF THE YEAR on Love Bytes!!!


    *falls down dead*

    I just cannot believe it. I’m so very thankful and honoured and humbled by all the readers who not only read and reviewed the book, but for those who nominated and voted. And of course, a huge thank you to Love Bytes for their tireless work and efforts in helping authors reach readers.

    I receive a lot of emails and messages about my books. Anywhere from 2 to 10 a week. But Henry and Reed’s story far surpasses all other books people contact me about. People share with me their stories of courage and hope, in taking back control of their lives. Henry has touched more people than I ever could have imagined. When I wrote Henry’s story, I had no clue at the profound effect he would have on readers.

    Just yesterday, when I posted that TWOIA had won Best Book of the Year, the wonderful Kat Juellyn posted this:

    Oh my goodness gracious! I am so excited that “The Weight of it All” by N.r. Walker won Book of the Year at Love Bytes Same Sex Reviews!!! I can’t tell you how thrilled I am that this phenomenal book won. It was up against so many amazing books but this book is the one that affected me personally. It actually encouraged me that, even though I am mobility challenged and in need of several big surgeries more, I had to try and get some movement back in my life. I headed back to my home in Hawaii on the heels of reading and reviewing this book. And I did accomplish some of my goals. I landed there being dependent on an electric scooter. By the time I left I hadn’t touched it in weeks. Thank you N. R. AND Henry and Reed for your motivation. Do yourself a favor and give this fabulous book a chance, I can guarantee you will not be disappointed! Congratulations again N. R.! You totally deserve this honor.

    (shared with Kat’s full permission)

    But it’s this kind of response that makes me cry actual physical tears. There have been dozens like this post. Literally dozens. I can’t explain what it means to me. My heart is so full of warm and fuzzies. <3 It’s also the reason I still make myself go to CrossFit and be so sore I do my own walking Tin Man or T-Rex impersonations for days afterwards.

    For anyone who hasn’t read TWOIA, it’s currently on sale at just 99c at Amazon.  But only for another day or two, so be quick!!


    So, that’s it for this week. I’m aiming to pump out some more words on the sequel to Imago this week, so I’ll be busy and not on social media much. I’d love to add 10K or more if I can. Fingers crossed.

    Until next week…


  • The Weight Of It All is 99c for a Limited Time Only!

    If you haven’t had a chance to read Henry and Reed’s story in The Weight Of It All, now is the time to grab it!

    At just 99c, it’s a bargain!

    You can find it at BookBub!

    Or at Amazon!

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    After being dumped by his long-term boyfriend for being overweight, Henry Beckett decides to make some drastic changes. In a vain attempt at getting his boyfriend back, Henry does the most absurdly frightening thing he can think of.
    He joins a gym.
    Reed Henske is a personal trainer who isn’t sure he’ll ever be ready to date again. He’s sick of guys who are only interested in the perfect body image, never seeing him for who he really is.
    As Reed tortures Henry with things like diet and exercise, Henry enamours Reed with recipes and laughter. As the friendship lines start to blur, Henry is convinced there’s no way Thor-like Reed could ever be interested in a guy like him.
    Reed just has to convince Henry that life isn’t about reaching your ideal bodyweight. It’s about finding your perfect counterweight.



  • Good Afternoon Thursday! Say what?

    So sorry I missed my usual Good Morning Monday post. I was travelling and have been feeling a bit under the weather since I got home. But I come bearing news…

    Red Dirt Heart 2 is now available on Audio!!  You can find it on Audible HERE


    I’m super excited about this one. Joel Leslie, the narrator, does such a fabulous job. He really captures Charlie and Travis beautifully.  <3   I’ll be running an audio book tour soon! More news on that when it comes to hand.

    In other news, The Weight of it All is now currently on sale for .99c at Amazon!  I’m running a Bookbub deal to coincide with the books’ return to Kindle Unlimited. So if you haven’t read it, now is the time to grab it!! I’ll post links to the Bookbub when I have them!

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    In translation news, Red Dirt Heart is now available in French!  When I first wrote these boys, I had no idea my words would reach so many people around the world. I’m very touched that Charlie and Travis’ story is adored by so many <3  You can find it at Amazon or with MXM Bookmark Publishing.


    You can also grab the Italian version of Red Dirt Heart 2 at Amazon or Triskell



    I have it on good authority that the German version of RDH2 isn’t too far away. And the French version of Cronin’s Key II should be out soon too!

    To recap, Perfect Catch, has been sitting at #1 in 2-hour short reads on Amazon for a few days now. I’m so thrilled that people have loved Troy and Cal’s story. <3

    A quick writing update: Imago is now with my editor!  It ended up being 45K words long, and is super sweet. I’ll be doing a cover reveal soon, and telling a little story on what happens when you write a book and you’re telling a friend the basic plot line, and she says it sounds familiar and you soon realise you might have just unknowingly copied a book released a few years ago. *sigh*  Crises averted though, so no need to panic. LOL

    Release day of Imago is set for February 21st 🙂

    And I’ve started the sequel!  Woooooot!!  Lawson and Jack are just so adorable. Can’t wait for you all to meet them.

    I also won a lot of awards at the Goodreads M/M readers choice awards!!

    The Weight Of It All won Best Contemporary for 2016!

    Red Dirt Heart Christmas won Best Short Story for 2016!

    The Weight Of It All was third for Best Book of the Year!

    The Weight Of It All won second for Best Humour of 2016!

    Spencer Cohen Book Three won third for Best Performance Artist (incl Tattooists)

    The Weight Of It All won third in Best Friends To Lovers of 2016!

    It Was Always You won second in Best Anthology of 2016!

    Thank you to all who nominated me and voted for me! 

    Until next time…


  • Good Morning Monday ~ Hello 2017!

    Welcome to 2017!  

    My first post of the year!  I’m not one to make New Year’s resolutions, but I really want 2017 to be productive, happy, and healthy. I’ve set my writing schedule for this year (and had to change it three times already LOL) but it will be another ridiculously busy y


    And what a way to bring in the New Year… When 2017 crawled around, Switched was at #1 on Amazon in six countries (US, UK, DE, CA, FR, BR) !!! And in the Top 5 of another 2 (AUS, NL) !!  I am, and will always be, humbled and grateful for you guys. <3  Let’s hope it’s a sign of what this year might bring!



    In light of All Romance eBooks closing (and their rather spectacular display of mismanagement, theft and lies  –  which you can read about HERE and HERE) I’ve started listing my non-Amazon-exclusive titles on Payhip. For those unable/unwilling to use Amazon, it’s a third-party hosting site where customers can pay for, and download, ebooks directly from the author. All payments are done through PayPal, and the file is downloaded directly to your computer.  You can check out my profile HERE.

    TheWeightOfItAll Cover 200x300The Weight Of It All is now not exclusive to Amazon!  Some other buy links are:



    I’m still waiting for the listing to go through to iBooks, B&N, Kobo etc. I will post the links as soon as I have them 🙂


    Coming up on the 10th of January, Perfect Catch will release as a single title. It was part of the It Was Always You Anthology where, with the other M/M Daily Grind authors, we raised a phenomenal amount of money for One.N.Ten charity. I will post more on that when we can 🙂   But, getting back to Perfect Catch…   It’s a 19K word short s
    tory of Cal and Troy, two Aussie best mates who fall for each other, hook, line and sinker.

    Look at this gorgeous cover, made by the even lovelier Sara York 🙂



    Calvin Lynch and Troy Hoffman have been best mates since they were fourteen years old. They’re both hard-working tradesmen, both love weekends away fishing, bot
    h gay, but have never been single at the same time. Until now.

    What is supposed to be a weekend away fishing with a group of mates, changes at the last minute when friends bail out in an attempt to give Cal and Troy some alone time.

    With more than just hooks on the line, can these two see what’s been right in front of them the whole time?

    The Perfect Catch is a short story about falling for your best friend hook, line, and sinker.


    I’ll be posting Perfect Catch on Payhip on about the 5th, so non-Amazon customers have a chance to purchase the book, prior to the 10th, when it will go exclusive to KU.

    Coming back to my 2017 schedule, at this point, it looks like there will be seven new releases,  and four re-releases of books where the rights revert back to me. Eleven in total, not including translations and audio, makes for a busy me. But that means lots of books for readers!

    Oh, before I forget, if you want to sign up for my newsletter, for further updates, news, promos and whatnot, you can do that HERE.

    So, welcome to 2017! And let’s make it a bloody good one!

    Until next week…


  • The Weight Of It All is now LIVE!!

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    TWOIA is now live and available on Amazon/KU!  *twirls*  I’m soooooo relieved to have this book out in the world. Now I can concentrate on this US trip that I’m so overwhelmingly not prepared for…   LOL









  • Good Morning Monday! 2.5 weeks to go!

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    OMG there’s only two and a half weeks until we leave for the U.S.!!!    It’s getting real, folks. And I still have so much to do!  BUT, it does look like my next release, The Weight Of It All will be released before I go.  Yay!!

    JSYK, there won’t be pre-orders for The Weight Of It All.  And chances are there won’t be a blog tour, unless I can pull one together at the last minute. It also means there won’t be my usual new release gift card giveaway etc because I’ll be in transit and can’t guarantee I’ll be able to send the Amazon gift card or even ebook prizes on time.  So, it’s probably going to be a low-key release, but at least the book will be out before I leave.  Waiting until early November would have killed me LOL.

    So, this week, I’ve done one round of edits, and my lovely editor said she’s never laughed so much while editing!  🙂   Glad it’s not just me who thinks Henry is adorable.  <3

    I have also sent Red Dirt Heart 2 to be narrated!   Hopefully it will be out toward the end of November.  So, yay for that! <3

    Next week, I have appointments and RL stuff to do, including accountant/taxes stuff which I hate LOL.  Though I will also be doing the final edits for The Weight Of It All and sending it off to my lovely proofreaders. I also have to plan and fit in a quick trip to Sydney in the next two weeks. So it’s busy busy busy times, as per usual for me.

    I also have two different sets of characters in my head at the moment. As usual, my characters don’t waste much time in wanting their story told, but normally they wait their turn. I can’t decide which story to start first. Neither one is yelling at me to be done first, and neither one is strictly romance…  And after writing The Weight Of It All, which was all romance and LOLs, I’m hesitant to jump into an angsty drama or crime/mystery.  One is a drama, stand alone novel, the other is a crime series, and while they will have hints of romance, it’s not the driving plot.  Both will require research, and time.  And let me tell you, writing fluffy romance is so much easier.  BUT my characters are usually stubborn and get what they want in the end. I will write them at some point, of that there is no doubt.

    Given I’ll be traveling and will be too busy doing touristy things to get much writing done, I might work on a light and fluffy Christmas story, and leave diving into something meatier until I get back from GRL.

    If my brain, and the characters in it, keep to that plan is anyone’s guess.  😉

    To finish up this week’s post, I thought a little excerpt of The Weight Of It All might be in order.

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    The next morning I was just as sore, if not a little sorer than the day before. But I was determined, and like a sucker for punishment, I dragged my sorry arse to the gym. I arrived with two minutes to spare, and Reed’s whole face broke out into a smile when he saw me.

    “Glad you made it.”

    “I’m sore as hell. Please make it stop.”

    “Okay,” he said with a chuckle. “Come this way.”

    I followed him over to the far corner where there were mats on the floor. He said goodbyes to the people who were just finishing up and leaving, sweaty and smiling. It was pretty clear everyone liked him. He was just that type of guy. Not like me, I was socially awkward, said things that were cringe worthy at best. Like now…

    “G’day,” one fit looking guy said to me as he walked past.

    “Good thanks.”

    It wasn’t until he was a metre or two behind me that I’d realised what I’d said. I just shook my head, like the socially inept idiot I was, and kept walking.

    When we’d reached the corner, Reed stopped and turned to face me. “So, where hurts the most?”


    “Legs? Arms? Chest?”


    Reed smiled. “Okay then, sit down for me.”

    “Sitting down is fine. It’s the getting up that bites.”

    Reed planted himself easily, gracefully, despite his size, on the ground. “Legs spread comfortably.”

    I lowered myself to the floor, trying to keep the grimace and yelp to a minimum. “Jesus. And this is normal?”

    Reed nodded. “Take a deep breath, keep your chest up straight.”

    I did that and didn’t die, so I relaxed a little.

    “Now stretch forward and grab your ankles.” He folded himself in half and held his feet with no trouble. I could barely reach past my knees. “Knees are fine.”


    He nodded encouragingly. “Hold it for twenty seconds.”

    Ugh. “I’m so unfit.”

    “But you’re here.”

    I nodded and breathed through the stretch and burn in my hamstrings, but by the end of the twenty seconds, I was grabbing my calf muscles. At this point, I’d take any advance I could get. Then he had me stretch arms and shoulders, then my lower back. It probably took fifteen minutes, and I felt like I’d already done a workout session.

    He leapt to his feet with the agility of a cat, then extended his hand to me. His hand was warm and calloused, which I had to admit, felt nice. I wasn’t used to rough hands. Graham’s hands were soft, like mine…

    “So, we’ll start on the treadmill to get the blood pumping.” He obviously read the trepidation on my face. “Just slow, nothing strenuous.”

    I took a deep breath and stepped onto the machine. Once I started walking, Reed seemed to sigh in relief. “Perfect,” he said.

    He left me to it for a few minutes, and truthfully, it wasn’t that hard. It was just hard on already-sore muscles. When that was done, I did equal time on the elliptical StairMaster, cardio-killing machine. It wasn’t overly strenuous, but I could feel every muscle burn. After quite possibly the longest five minutes of my life, I stepped back off the machine, wiped my face down with my towel, and took a sip of water, trying not to die.

    “How you feeling?” Reed asked.

    “Like I’ve been set on fire, thanks for asking.”

    He just grinned and clapped his hands together enthusiastically. “Time for strength and core conditioning.”

    “I’m sorry, was that full strength coffee and air conditioning?”

    He laughed, and his eyes shone bright blue. “Oh, you crack me up.” Then he led me over to the weights. “The weight and pulley machine is good, but it might not always be available,” he said. “Some days you might need to use free weights.” He handed me two five kilo dumbbells, he picked up some for himself, and together we did a range of exercises like tricep extensions, lateral raises, and hammer curls. He called it body strength exercises. I called it brutality.

    He put his weights down. “Okay, now get down on the floor for me.”

    I collapsed in a panting, sweating, aching heap. “Thank God.”

    Then he made me do cruel, cruel things like leg lifts, leg holds, bridges, and planking. And to finish, we did torso twists and sit ups. I mean I only did about thirty seconds of each, but good fucking Lord! And I signed up for this shit?

    After he’d made sure I’d stretched properly and that I could still breathe and wasn’t going to drop dead, he held his hand out to me where I was now lying flat on my back for a high-five. It was an effort to even lift my hand up to reach his, but I did it.

    “Would you mind terribly if I just died here for a little while?”

    He grinned. “Nope, no dying today.” He held his hand to me and pulled me to my feet without any effort. “You did great today.”

    “Can we go back to blinking? One for yes, two for no. My eyelids are about the only thing that still works.”

    He blinked once for yes.

    I laughed and let my head fall forward, a mix of exhaustion and relief that my second official training session was finished.

    “You did real good today, Henry.” He spoke to me―and to all his clients, I presumed―like I was the only person in the room. “For the next two days, do some gentle walking, gentle stretches. Give your body a rest, but try not to be still for too long. And I’ll see you on Sunday at eight o’clock, yeah?”

    I nodded. “Yep. If I’m not dead.”

    “I’ll text you tomorrow to see how you’re getting on. Is that okay?”

    “Sure. But isn’t tomorrow your day off?”

    Reed nodded. “Yep. I have Wednesdays and Fridays off. But I don’t mind.” He perked up and gave a mock salute. “It’s my duty as your personal trainer.”

    I found myself smiling at him. “Sure. I better get going. I gotta go home and get showered and into work by nine.”

    Reed looked at his watch. “Shoot. It’s eight o’clock now.”

    “Ten minutes to home, twenty minutes to shower and shave, and fifteen minutes to drive to work. Believe me, the longest part will be the walk from the elevator to my desk.” I did my best rusted Tin Man impersonation, though I wasn’t acting, and walked/shuffled out of the gym.

    And by the time I fell into my office chair, the familiar, yet still surprising at every turn, muscle pain mowed me down again.


    That’s it for this post, folks. Until next week…

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