• Code Red is OUT NOW!

     

    BLURB

    Maddox Kershaw is the main vocalist of the world’s biggest boy band. He’s at the top of every music chart, every award show, every social media platform, and every sexiest-man-alive list. He’s the bad boy, the enigma, the man everyone on the planet wants a piece of.

    He’s also burned out and exhausted, isolated and lonely. Not in a good headspace at the start of a tour.

    Roscoe Hall is Maddox’s personal manager. His job is high-flying, high-demand, high-profile, and he loves it. Maddox has consumed his entire life for the past four years. Roscoe knows him. He sees the real Maddox no one else gets to see.
    He’s also in love with him.

    When the tour and stress become too much, when the world begins to close in, Roscoe becomes Maddox’s lifeline. But as Maddox knows already, and as Roscoe is about to learn, the brighter the spotlight, the darker the shadow.

     

    UNIVERSAL BUY LINK

     

    Just a quick update today to let you all know that Code Red is now live! I hope you enjoy Roscoe and Maddox’s story.

    I’ll be back in July with some book sales I have planned. Take care and be safe.

    Until then…

  • Inside Code Red

    It’s release week for Code Red! Just a few more days to wait… so I thought I’d share some inside info.

    Code Red is about the lead singer of a boyband (Maddox) and his personal manager (Roscoe). Roscoe has been Maddox’s personal manager/handler for four years and he’s been in love with him for three of those. While all five members of the band are equal, Maddox is singled out as the bad boy, the one everyone wants. He’s thrust into the centre of all interviews, fans and paparazzi hound him all the time, and because of security risks/measures, he lives an isolated, lonely life.

    While writing Code Red, I researched boy bands such as BTS and One Direction mostly, and 5SOS to a lesser extent. And I also researched their management companies, their security details, their schedules; daily and whilst on tour. I watched tour documentaries, interviews and videos on fan and security interaction.

    Phew. It’s a scary world.

    One thing to remember while reading Code Red is that boy band management is very different to standard band management. If you didn’t know already, boy bands are, more or less, owned by their management companies. Their management company calls the shots in all matters, personal and professional. Their lives are tied up in contracts and non-disclosure agreements.

    Another thing to remember is Code Red is fictional and not a user-guide on how boy bands are managed. I had to take some creative license LOL.

    Okay now to the fun part…

    The band: Atrous

    The word atrous means jet black. I originally wanted to call the band Onyx but that name for a band was already taken. Then I liked the name Jet (from jet black) but that was taken too. So I searched some other words pertaining to onyx and there was perse, sable, and atrous. I went with atrous.

    Atrous has five members: Maddox, Jeremy, Wes, Luke, and Blake.

    Atrous’ logo is a pentagon. This logo/brand was designed by me. I needed something with five sides and a solid pentagonal shape was too hard to work with. I love the pentagon shape though and it was perfect for my guys, given the five equal sides.

    Maddox and Roscoe

    What do they look like? (I don’t own these photos. Licenses and copyright belong to the original creators/photographers)

    Roscoe looks a bit like Chris Hemsworth. He’s tall, blond, well-built, and is often mistaken for Maddox’s security. He grew up in a small town in Vermont playing ice hockey and moved to LA to experience the gay scene, sunshine, and city life.

    Maddox looks like Jeon Jungkook. Maddox is American born with grandparents from Japan and Europe. He has one sleeve of tattoos, he wears long black earrings. He sings like an angel, dances like the devil, and is utterly gorgeous. It’s kinda easy to see why Maddox is head over heels in love with him.

     

     

    Atrous pic

    I always pictured 5SOS (from right to left) Jeremy, Wes, Luke and Blake as Atrous.

    Photo from Hollywood Life

    The tour

    A twenty-three concert tour of the US, Canada, and South America. I have made merch for this tour/band and you can find them at my MERCH STORE.

     

    And finally….

    Maddox’s Notebook

    In Code Red, Maddox has a notebook that he takes with him everywhere. He writes lyrics and composes music scores in his notebook though we never see inside of it.

    In the ebook and paperback, I’ve included a section at the end called Maddox’s Notebook. I’ve included SEVEN songs/lyrics in this section of the book. I added these for fun and for a little treat. I highly doubt they’d hold water in any kind of lyric writing/song making contest so please don’t expect them to. These ‘lyrics’ are from poetry I’ve written over the years and I thought it was a great way to include them into a book. I even use the word poetry loosely here. Merely just thoughts, really. And that’s what Maddox’s Notebook is as well. It’s his thoughts and the basis of his songwriting.

    They look something like this:  (This is a screenshot. It’s not printable quality)

     

    So that’s it. That’s all I can tell you about Code Red without giving too much away. You can pre-order Code Red at

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  • Good Morning Monday ~ Paperback Sale and Code Red Excerpt!

    It feels like forever since I’ve done a Good Morning Monday post… probably because it has been forever LOL  As you might now, I ran out of spoons for doing anything in late 2020 and it seems I still have very limited productivity and motivation. My brain fog seems to be lifted but I’m still turning in circles most days.

    BUT today I have some things to share! First up we have…

     

    Target gearing up for new buy 2, get 1 free sale on games and more - Nintendo Everything

    My paperbacks are on sale at Target in the US

    They are currently running a BUY 2 GET 1 FOR FREE deal and the paperback of Switched is just $6.29!!  Now is definitely the time to grab it!

    Eeeek!  I’ve never seen my books in a retailer (in person) so this is so exciting for me!

    Here’s the link:

    https://www.target.com/p/switched-by-n-r-walker-paperback/-/A-83116201

    If you scroll down on that page you’ll see ‘Similar Items’  and you’ll find all my books there!


    CODE RED IS JUST 10 DAYS AWAY…

    I thought I’d share a very short little excerpt from Code Red with you guys!

    This is from chapter one. The whole book is from Roscoe’s POV. I adore these two guys, and I really hope you enjoy it…

    PREORDER LINK

     

    Excerpt:

    “Roscoe Hall,” I answered my phone, out of time and patience. It didn’t dawn on me that it was Ryan’s number until after I’d said my name. It was my twentieth call this morning already.

    “Just confirming ETA for 9:00 am.”

    I checked my watch. It was 7:30 now and I’d already been up for far too long. It was a big day, and I could take a moment to breathe once we were all together.

    “Yeah, Ryan. Will be there, thanks.”

    There was a brief pause. “Is Maddox with you?”

    “On my way to get him now.”

    “See you there.”

    I pocketed my phone and did one last check. Phone, wallet, passport, tickets, keys. I grabbed my carry-on, locked my front door, and wheeled my suitcase down to the waiting car. I hadn’t even greeted the driver when my phone rang again, and it beeped again on my way to collect Maddox.

    I was organized and efficient, aggressively so.

    It’s what made me good at my job. Being the personal manager for one of the world’s biggest boy bands was every minute of my life.

    These boys didn’t accept second best for anything, and neither did I.

    And I should clarify that while they were classified as a boy band, they were men. They might have started out as boys—they were just kids in high school when they formed their first band. But they were twenty-three now. They’d done the small local gigs, needing their parents’ permission to play in bars and clubs around LA when they were underage.

    The story of how the band called Atrous made it to the big time was well-known.

    The five boys came from nothing. A garage band that crossed pop with rock and rap, playing small gigs wherever they could, when a well-known radio DJ saw them and uploaded footage to his social media. Platinum Entertainment, one of America’s biggest entertainment management companies, signed them, and they’d been on the top of the world music stage for the last four years.

    To the outside world, these guys were the ultimate success story.

    They had no idea what went on when the lights went out.

    Saying I was the personal manager of the whole band wasn’t true either. Personal assistant, handler, manager. It was all the same. But it wasn’t just me. I was one of three. Ryan Morten, Amber Seratt, and I were the personal managers of Atrous, as a whole. While the three managers looked after the five band members, I was, however, the unstated personal manager of one of them in particular.

    Lead vocalist and rapper, main dancer, bad boy, Maddox Kershaw.

    Ryan and Amber took care of Jeremy, Wes, Luke, and Blake. But Maddox was mine.

    Well, not mine. But mine.

    God, how I wished he were mine . . .

    Over the last four years, Maddox and I’d just gelled. He didn’t trust easily, and for some reason he’d put his trust in me. And the truth was, he needed his own personal manager more than the other four guys.

    Maddox was the face of Atrous. Unwilling, but the face, nonetheless.

    He carried the weight of their reputation, their brand. He was the one they hounded, the one they chased, the one they followed, the one that made headlines every other day.

    He wore black, he had a full sleeve of tattoos, perfect skin, and he had attitude to spare. His motto was to burn down the institutions, to stand tall for those who had to kneel, and to speak for those who had been silenced.

    He resonated with the youth around the world.

    He was also incredibly good-looking.

    When I say good-looking, I mean hot. Sexy, enigmatic, ethereal, even.

    His heritage had been talked about a million times. So much of his life was public. His grandparents on his mother’s side were Japanese, and his grandparents on his father’s side were Dutch. He was a second-generation American, a very talented musician, and he was incredibly smart.

    He sang like an angel and danced like the devil.

    And he answered the door looking like a mix of both. His hair was wet from the shower, he smelled warm and clean, he wore black cargo pants, a black T-shirt, and combat boots. It was his standard attire. Seeing him like that made my heart feel far too big for my chest. “Forget your key?” he asked. He even almost smiled.

    It had been so long since I’d seen him smile . . .

    Yes, I had a key to his house. But that was for emergencies only. I followed him inside. “You ready? The others are meeting us there.”

    He grumbled something that sounded like assent. His house was still dark, open and vast, mind-bogglingly expensive, and it felt empty. It was in Beverly Hills, worth a reported twelve million with incredible views of the canyon and the city, but Maddox had the blinds drawn.

    He plucked a black hoodie off the back of his sofa and pulled it on. I ignored how his T-shirt lifted a little, exposing a sliver of pale skin above his waistband. I’d seen him shirtless a thousand times. Hell, I’d even seen him in his underwear. It was nothing new, but it still managed to warm my blood.

    I grabbed his two suitcases, wheeling them toward the door. He picked up his black backpack. “Got my passport?”

    “Yep,” I replied. “We’re all good. Your mom’s got her key and security numbers?”

    “Yeah,” he said with a shrug.

    His mother was going to come look after his place while we were gone. We’d be gone for almost seven weeks. Seven long, grueling weeks.

    “Come on, I have an iced coffee waiting for you in the car.”

    He pulled up his hood, but I swear there was the beginning of a smile before the shadow stole it.

    My phone buzzed again, and I pulled it out of my pocket and groaned at the screen. Another message that could wait until we were in the car. I pulled the door shut behind us, made sure it was locked, and wheeled the luggage to the waiting car. I opened the car door for him, I closed the door for him, I loaded the bags into the trunk—it was my job to do these things for him—and finally I got into the back of the car with Maddox.

    My phone buzzed again, and I thumbed out a quick reply. We’d been driving for about ten minutes when I realized Maddox hadn’t said a word. He’d sipped his coffee but not much else. I looked at him then, really looked at him, and underneath the killer good looks was a tired man.

    “You sleep okay?” I asked.

    He scoffed as his answer, then glanced pointedly at my phone. “Did you? Has your phone stopped yet?”

    I didn’t need to reply because we both knew the answer.

    He nodded because he knew he was right and proving his point, I replied to some more emails and messages on the drive downtown. Yes, we all lived in LA, and yes, we were staying at a hotel in LA because when the tour began, the band and the whole crew would stay together. Mostly for logistical and security reasons, but also for bonding. We were one unit from day one, regardless of location.

    As the car pulled into the hotel’s underground parking lot, Maddox’s eyes trained on the people rushing about. “The guys are already here?” he asked.

    “Yep. Arrived five minutes ago.”

    His shoulders relaxed a little, and for that I was glad. He and his bandmates were like brothers; they’d been through everything together. He was closer to Jeremy than the others, but the bond between the five of them was clear. I was relieved that he’d be with them again. I was pretty sure he’d spent the last few days by himself, holed up in his house. I’d spoken to him on the phone, even came to see him a few times, but getting ready for a tour was a busy time for me.

    Before we came to a complete stop, he was quiet and chewed on his bottom lip. I wanted to ask him if he was okay, but there wasn’t time. I doubted he’d even answer that question, or answer it honestly, anyway.

    “You excited?” I asked instead. “Sellout stadium tour, twenty-three concerts. You ready for that?”

    He met my gaze and didn’t look away. His smile was as brief as it was beautiful. “Yeah. Of course.”

    I didn’t believe him, and it was devastating how he could look right at me with those dark, dark eyes and speak so sincerely while he lied.

    I spent almost every day with him. I knew him. I knew the real Maddox Kershaw, not the Maddox he showed the world. I knew the private one, the quiet one, the intellectual one . . .

    The miserable one.

    The Maddox I’d been secretly in love with for years . . . the Maddox I could never have.

    “Maddox,” I said, but his door opened from the outside, and people were getting luggage from our car and giving directions, and there was no time.

    The commotion had begun. These seven weeks were going to be brutal.

    He lowered his head, pulled up his hood to hide his face, and got out of the car.


    Can’t wait for you all to meet these two. Code Red is a bit angsty, it deals with some mental health issues as Maddox struggles with isolation and loneliness. It’s a romance so of course there is a big whopping HEA.

     

     

  • Code Red Cover and Blurb Reveal

    ARE YOU READY?

    I’m very excited to show this to you!

    This feels like it’s been forever coming, but I finally have the cover and blurb for you, and a pre-order link.

    This cover was made by me, and it really captures Maddox and his struggles. Code Red deals with the ups and downs of fame. Being the hottest thing on the planet sounds all kinds of fun until Maddox finds himself living in a vacuum of isolation because of the world that claims to love him.

    Please note: Code Red will have trigger warnings for some mental health issues, including anxiety.

    It is a romance at heart and it certainly ends with a very big happy ever after.

    The audio is scheduled for recording this month and the super talented Nick Russo is at the mic.

     

     

    Blurb:

    Maddox Kershaw is the main vocalist of the world’s biggest boy band. He’s at the top of every music chart, every award show, every social media platform, and every sexiest-man-alive list. He’s the bad boy, the enigma, the man everyone on the planet wants a piece of.

    He’s also burned out and exhausted, isolated and lonely. Not in a good headspace at the start of a tour.

    Roscoe Hall is Maddox’s personal manager. His job is high-flying, high-demand, high-profile, and he loves it. Maddox has consumed his entire life for the past four years. Roscoe knows him. He sees the real Maddox no one else gets to see.

    He’s also in love with him.

    When the tour and stress become too much, when the world begins to close in, Roscoe becomes Maddox’s lifeline. But as Maddox knows already, and as Roscoe is about to learn, the brighter the spotlight, the darker the shadow.

    PRE-ORDER LINK

     


     

    DON’T FORGET ABOUT THE AUDIO SALE!

    In case you missed it, I have 23 audiobooks on sale for entire the month of June!

    All of my titles at Findaway Voices are reduced down to just $4.99 each.

    What is Findaway Voices/Authors Direct?

    Findaway is the distributor that sends my audios to all platforms. As an Australian, my access to ACX/Audible is restricted but Findaway allows distribution to all stores, including Audible, Scribd, Kobo etc.

    Findaway Voices also has a direct storefront which allows for direct sales.

    Why is the sale at Findaway Voices/Authors Direct and not other retailers?

    I have direct access to, and control of, pricing structure at Findaway. I can amend prices without lengthy delays.

    Is using Findaway Voices/Authors Direct difficult?

    Not at all. There are very easy steps outlined on my storefront. Please contact Authors Direct if you have any issues.

     

    AUTHORS DIRECT LINK

     

  • Pride Month Audiobook Blitz!

     

    $4.99 AUDIO SALE FOR PRIDE MONTH

    I have 23 audiobooks on sale for entire the month of June!

    All of my titles at Findaway Voices are reduced down to just $4.99 each.

    What is Findaway Voices?

    Findaway is the distributor that sends my audios to all platforms. As an Australian, my access to ACX/Audible is restricted but Findaway allows distribution to all stores, including Audible, Scribd, Kobo etc. 

    Findaway Voices also has a direct storefront which allows for direct sales.

    Why is the sale at Findaway Voices and not other retailers?

    I have direct access to, and control of, pricing structure at Findaway. I can amend prices without lengthy delays.

    Is using Findaway Voices difficult?

    Not at all. There are very easy steps outlined on my storefront.

    LINK TO MY FINDAWAY VOICES STORE

     


     

    COVER AND BLURB NEXT WEEK

    Title: Code Red

    Word count: 102,500 words

    Genre: Contemporary gay romance

    Publication date: June 24th